Songs of Leaving
a short story
Peter Crowther's collection of short stories,
Songs of Leaving, is published by Subterranean
Press in October 2004. From the publisher's website:
An undercover patron of literature restores
hope in a bookless society; the survivor of a long-ago space mission
receives a visit from a hauntingly familiar UFO; a time-traveling
assassin wreaks havoc in the execution of his latest contract; a late-night
driver undergoes a most unusual police interrogation; a small town
meets alien life and encounters a small problem regarding the measurement
of time; the clone of Abraham Lincoln strives to find peace in modern-day
New York City; a super-villain discovers his true place in the scheme
of things; and the imminent impact of a county-sized piece of space
debris brings to the remnants of humanity a multitude of old friends
to witness the fall of mankind.
Just some of the stories in this new collection
from Award-winning author Peter Crowther, who -- already renowned
for his work in horror/dark fantasy and crime/suspense -- turns his
attention here to the other-worldly elements of SF. But, as ever,
the emphasis is on people... the things that motivate them and the
things that bring them together.
Songs of Leaving
And I saw the dead, great and small alike...
The final ships go up reaching for the stars in the closing
days of what is to be the last winter of the world.
They ride interlocking plumes of power and steam like anxious fingers
of smoky fire, colored sunset orange and cornfield yellow in the still
afternoon. And each of them belches out a tumultuous roar, a hymn of
steam and gasoline, a cadence of harmony and discordance, a syncopated
symphony of regret and anticipation.
A song of leaving.
They have already left from Islamabad and Jerusalem, these ships --
or ships like them... like them in intent if not in appearance -- and
from the arid wastes outside of Beijing and the heat-shimmering flats
of Florida; from the snow-covered plains surrounding Moscow and the
scorched tundra of Kenya. From a thousand thousand places, the ships
have lifted into the sky in these tired days, with the distant horizon
darkened not only by their sheer number but also by the approaching
The towering silver points of the final ships rise to hit the clouds
and then puncture them, pulling them down and around their midriffs,
bellies bulging with the almost-last people of Earth, their pinpoint
faces turned to the grimy windows, acceleration pulling at muscle, sinew
and flesh as they watch the cities and the meadows fall behind, and
the endless gray ribbons of highway and the veiny drifts of water drop
down and down until they are at first partially obscured by the clouds
and then completely obliterated by swirling whiteness.
On the ground, silent faces -- some alone, some huddled in groups --
also watch as the last ships dwindle in the azure blue, growing smaller
until they are no longer ships but merely glittering shadows, and then
distant needles and then, at last, merely the tiniest specks in an otherwise
And then they are gone.
Ahead of the ships lie the domed cities of the Moon and Mars. Beyond
those, a series of space-borne stations littering the heavens, some
finished and some still under preparation. A colossal paper chase of
metal and plastic, stepping stones of rivet and cable, leading humanity's
survivors across the airless void and on towards untold adventures and
undreamed-of destinies. The ships will touch down and their passengers
and crews will consolidate and plan their next steps, always looking
with one eye to the darkness before them and the other to the ghost
of the doomed planet they have left behind. Only some of them will survive
the journey. But that's something they do not think about.
Back on the Earth the silence rushes in to remove the memory of the
ships' engines, runs along the worn-down pathways of a million forests
and the dusty streets of a million towns, replacing their throaty roar
with the sound of the wind through the trees and the creak of swinging
The asteroid was first noticed by amateur astronomer Julio
Shennanen, through the $199.95 telescope bought as a 30th birthday present
by his brother Manuel from the Keep Watching The Skies store
on Bleecker Street and erected in Julio's back yard in the Brooklyn
suburb of Park Slope.
Julio, who was a native of New Orleans, had moved north when his wife
Carmen had gotten herself a job as a child-minder to a wealthy couple
in a penthouse apartment overlooking Central Park. Initially referred
to as 'Shennanen's Folly' by a skeptical sky-gazing fraternity, the
object reported as a shadow over Alpha Centauri turned out to be a whole
lot more substantial and a whole lot nearer when it could be viewed
by something costing a little more than a week's grocery bill. It turned
out to be a whole lot more menacing, too.
At the request of its discoverer the object was re-named 'Fat Tuesday',
ostensibly because that was the day on which it was first spotted (and
because, at roughly the size of the entire Eastern seaboard, it was
big). But the underlying reason was an acknowledgment of Julio's hometown
-- inasmuch as 'Fat Tuesday' was a literal translation of 'Mardi Gras',
the name now regarded as the entire celebration but originally intended
as referring only to the final day... a day of feasting. It was also
-- and perhaps more significantly -- a recognition on Shennanen's part,
even in those early days of the object's arrival in our planetary skies,
that the Carnival's days were numbered... the Carnival being Earth and
all who lived upon it. A kind of 'lucky' cosmic coming-together of events
for would-be wordsmiths with nothing better to do with their long New
York evenings than star-gaze.
But there was nothing 'lucky' about the appearance of Fat Tuesday,
particularly where Julio Shennanen was concerned. By that time, the
writing was on the wall for the world, and there were some in the world
who held Shennanen responsible -- sad and bitter folks who had spent
a lifetime blaming others for anything that happened to them. And so
it was that, on the evening of the anniversary of his discovery, the
computer programming sky watcher was shot and killed outside his home,
with Carmen looking on from the bedroom window. When Julio's screaming
wife ran out to help him, she got a bullet in her back for her trouble.
In a letter of pasted newspaper copy sent to the New York Times,
the assassin said that he (or she -- nobody ever found out) was committed
to ridding the world of this blight on humanity (Shennanen) and, in
so doing, remove the threat of Fat Tuesday. (Though quite how those
two items could be connected was beyond all but those who sent fifty-dollar
bills to PO Box addresses posted up on TV screens at the end of an afternoon
session of down-home 'back to basics' sermonizing on cable.)
The assassin was never caught -- at least, not by the authorities --
and the threat to others in the scientific community remained. Despite
the fact that the media and pretty much everyone she spoke to or heard
from condemned the action with vigor, a now wheelchair-bound Carmen
Shennanen left the excesses of New York State and returned to the Big
Easy where she disappeared into an anonymity worthy of the FBI informant
protection program and one that even Julio's brother Manuel could not
Meanwhile, Fat Tuesday blunders on.
According to one pundit, the asteroid is on course to 'kiss' the Earth
in the early afternoon of February 8 2007, just seventeen months after
its first sighting. "The particularly bad news is that this is going
to be no platonic peck on the cheek," NASA's resident expert in 'heavenly
affairs' Professor Jerry Mizzalier goes on to tell Oprah Winfrey in
a show interview whose transmission is debated for a full week before
eventual release to a waiting and increasingly despondent world. "It'll
be the full enchilada," Mizzalier continues, "a big smackeroo on the
lips and the tongue right down the throat."
"And then?" Oprah asks in an uncharacteristically trembling voice.
Mizzalier's shrugged response says it all: the kiss is just the foreplay.
After that, mankind gets fucked. Big Time.
When you put your mind to it, you can do a lot in nine months.
Throughout 2006 and into the January of Earth's final year, all potential
solutions were considered while, at the same time, work continued feverishly
on the construction of spaceships that would, if all else failed, carry
the seed of humanity -- and as many of its fellow planetary inhabitants
as could be realistically mustered in so short a time -- to the stars.
The alternatives were running out fast. Nuclear missiles failed to
have any effect. "It's kind of like trying to blow up an elephant with
a .45," Jerry Mizzalier explained colorfully to Dan Rather. "You may
get lucky and dislodge a nickel-sized chunk of meat but that's about
all." That was Mizzalier's last TV appearance. Two days later, he told
the Washington Post he was going down to the Keys to make his
peace with God -- "And maybe do a little fishing on the side."
Four attempts at landing a hand-picked crew of demolition experts a
la the Armageddon and Deep Impact movies of the late
1990s got no nearer to Fat Tuesday than a few hundred miles. It seemed
that either real-life Bruce Willises and Robert Duvalls were somewhat
thinner on the ground than their celluloid counterparts... or movie-makers
and screenwriters had simply got it wrong (hard as that was for many
Perhaps not quite so colorful as Jerry Mizzalier but no less succinct
was the nonagenarian British astronomer Patrick Moore's verdict on BBC
television's Newsnight. "One should liken it to a game of snooker,"
the monocled scientist explained to Jeremy Paxman, with a characteristic
pin-wheeling flourish of his arms, "with Earth sitting defenseless in
the middle of the table, right in the path of the white ball."
On the other side of the Atlantic a couple of days later, Colorado
physicist W. Martin Parmenter picked up the analogy on a special edition
of The Jerry Springer Show when, along with other luminaries
of the scientific establishment, he was invited to hypothesize the outcome
of the 'Big Kiss'. "I don't know diddly about snooker," Parmenter said
laconically, "but if we switch to the game I play, then we're
the eight ball on a table in a pool hall in Denver... and we're about
to get hit full on with enough force to drop us -- or what's left of
us -- in the corner pocket on a table in a cellar barroom in Mexico
The disappearance of Springer from the airwaves following the show
was openly considered by many to be the single silver lining in the
approaching dark cloud that was Fat Tuesday... that and the appearance
of an advertising board carried by a barefoot man down the full length
of Broadway, his handiwork proclaiming, in hand-scrawled letters that
were a mix of caps and lower case, 'It's official -- Fat Tuesday is
a load of balls'.
By the time of Earth's last fall, with the browning leaves bidding
a fond and final farewell, all continuing attempts to avert the inevitable
catastrophe were cosmetic at best. The real energy was now being channeled
worldwide into the construction of spaceships, huge gleaming monoliths
that grew quickly on hastily-prepared launch-pads around the globe.
That not all of these vehicles would survive the trip was accepted,
as was the inescapable fact that, statistically speaking -- particularly
considering the haste and the resulting corner-cutting of their translation
from blueprint to steel and wire and circuit board -- many of the ships
would not even make it off the ground. But it was a risk that an escape-mad
humanity receiving its quota of 'lottery' tickets ('Life's a lottery,'
ran the impassioned ad campaign, 'so make sure of your tickets today')
was more than prepared to take.
When the last ship to successfully depart the green hills
of Earth lifts to relative safety above the planet's atmosphere on February
4 2007 -- a Tuesday, appropriately enough -- the tally of successes
against failures (for anyone remaining on Earth who might be interested)
is an impressive 3.718 to one.
And then they are gone.
Small ships, sleek pointy-nosed sliver-shaped missiles bearing ten-
or twelve-strong crews snuggled amongst carefully-secured boxes of artifacts
and flags and religious ornamentation, and huge-bellied blunderbusses
carrying cryogenically frozen embryos of the Earth's animal and insect
populations and thin trays of seeds containing all manner of flora and
fauna... all have disappeared over the months and weeks and days, up
into the sky and far away. Now all that is left are the unlucky ones,
the ones whose lottery tickets haven't paid off.
There are billions of them in mountains and valleys and towns and cities,
all the distant off-the-beaten-track communities from China to Scotland,
from the wine-growing regions of France to the sidewalk cafes of Vienna,
all of them paradoxically breathing a sigh of relief as the last gleaming
means of escape passes behind the clouds -- in much the same way as
the terminally-ill patient relaxes when all the fit-and-well visitors
depart the hospital and leave the slowly dying to get on with the job
in peace and quiet. 'Misery loves company', is the way it's often described.
But the truth of the matter is that, in these final hours, there is
little sign of misery.
Movies and literature which, in the last half of the previous century,
foretold of anarchy and chaos in the face of humanity's end, couldn't
have got it more wrong. With the last spaceship now a memory of chances
missed and debts now to be paid, a strange calm falls across the cities
and towns and villages of Earth.
What little looting there has been has been dealt with swiftly and
without mercy. A do-it-yourself system of law and order has grown throughout
the winter months, bringing with it an acceptable face of vigilantism
in which people are openly but unemotionally intolerant of any among
their number who fail to live up to the dignity now expected of the
last remnants of the species.
Because, after all, what use is a new video recorder? Or precious jewelry?
And anyway, most storekeepers simply leave their stores open and go
home. So stuff is there for the taking but most people leave it be:
gleaming Chevys and Cadillacs sitting in unmanned showrooms; the very
latest fashions from Gucci and Versace adorning silent mannequins in
the windows of stores whose doors lie carelessly and casually ajar;
and rare first issues -- in mint condition, no less -- of silver- and
golden-age DC comicbooks, their costumed impossibly-super heroes staring
off the covers regretting that there's nothing even Krypton's first
son can do to avert the disaster spiraling closer with every passing
Everywhere is quiet.
People stay home, make love gently and talk feverishly, trying to pack
all the thoughts and hopes and love they thought they had left into
the few hours that remain. Sons and daughters return home like it's
Thanksgiving or Christmas. In between their conversations, minds idly
drift to thoughts of what it will be like when the end finally comes:
wondering what it will be like, sitting in a 15-story apartment building
and seeing a wave of water thundering towards the window blotting out
the blood-red sky... wondering what it will feel like to have your mid-west
home blown up from around you while you crouch with your family behind
the sofa or, if you have one, in the cellar listening to the sound of
Earth breaking up. Consequently, most folks don't leave potential talk-
or love-making-time empty.
The last ship has gone.
Fat Tuesday's kiss is now accurately scheduled for 2.17 PM on Saturday.
On Wednesday, the Earth gives up its dead.
The boy turns around and looks at the man standing out on the street
by the white picket-fence gate. "Hey yourself," he says, shielding his
eyes against the sun's glare. It's almost mid-day and the California
heat is stifling but, even so, the street is busy with people.
The boy's name is William Freeman -- his friends call him Billy; his
parents, Will -- he is twelve years old and suddenly acutely aware that,
as far as he had been concerned, the street had been pretty much deserted
the last time he looked. And that was only a few minutes earlier.
"You must be Will," the man says, beaming a big smile and resting a
liver-spotted hand on the gatepost as he looks William up and down.
William nods. The man must be a friend of his mom and dad, someone
who's maybe been out of town for a while and has come back to more familiar
surroundings for when the asteroid hits. Right now, though, William
is more concerned with a tall thin man standing across the street with
his back to them. This new man's hands are resting on his hips and he's
shaking his head staring up at Mr. and Mrs. Manders' place, seeming
to take a lot of interest in the new glass conservatory Mr. Manders
tacked on a couple of summers back.
"Don't you want to know who I am?" the old man at William's
gate asks in a voice bearing more than a hint of amusement.
When William turns back to the man he can see the distant shape of
Fat Tuesday over to the east, hanging on the horizon like a party lantern.
"Who are you?" he asks, wondering if it was his imagination or does
the man suddenly seem a mite familiar.
The screen door squeaks open behind him, whines shut and clatters twice.
William turns and sees his mother walking across the lawn, picking her
steps real careful, like she was walking on thin ice. Her left hand
is up to her mouth, her right holding a hank of hair at the side of
her head. She's staring -- with a mixture of frown and wide-eyed amazement
-- not at William but over his shoulder. William looks back at the old
"Hello, Pooch," the man says.
George Chinnery was the first to make contact. It had to
be somebody and, as luck would have it, it was George.
George slipped away to new adventures in the spring of 1998, leaving
behind him a breathless cardiac arrest team, a callous flat green line
on a bedside monitor and a weeping daughter. William had been almost
four years old but still young enough to forget quickly. Forget and
accept... or maybe the two were the same thing.
But while George was the first, over in the quiet suburb of Hawthorne,
an area in the sprawling Californian conurbation that was famous for
producing one of the last century's most enduring musical acts, the
others quickly followed.
Hillary and Sam Arnold sit on the bed in their son's room.
Around them are strewn the collected ephemera that is all that remains
of little Joseph Arnold: comicbooks, a Millennium Falcon toy spaceship
-- that looks nothing like the huge ships that have so recently left
Hillary and Sam and the rest of the Earth far behind them -- and a few
favorite pieces of clothing that Hillary just hasn't had the heart to
throw out when the tumor took their little boy away.
There are no tears. The tears dried up years ago. Now there is only
a grim and quiet resignation that sometimes fades right into the background...
only to return when they least expect it, usually in the mornings when,
on waking, the imminence of Fat Tuesday -- or even its very existence
-- seems for just a fraction of a second to be the remnants of a very
bad dream. Only it isn't a dream at all.
"You want me to get some pills or something?" Sam Arnold asks his wife
in a voice that is just above a whisper. He runs his hand down her back.
She shakes her head and folds the sleeves of little Joseph's sweater,
laying the garment gently on her son's pillow.
"Jack Mason says old man Phillips -- you know? down on Times Square?
-- he's giving them away to any that wants them. Wouldn't take me-"
"I couldn't bring myself to do that," Hillary tells her husband, turning
to look at his face, seeing the darkness beneath his eyes. She recognizes
that darkness: it isn't fear, it's the helplessness he feels at being
unable to do anything for those he cares about. Since the death of Joseph
and their decision not to try replace him, that 'those' is just her.
He runs his hand up to her neck and gently kneads the skin between
her hairline and the collar of her housedress. "It wouldn't hurt," he
says. "Jack says old man Phillips said-"
"How do they know?" Hillary says in a tired voice. "And, anyway, it's
not the hurt I'm bothered about."
"Then what is it?"
She shrugs and looks up at the window, imagining the cold skeletal
trees of Central Park just a couple of blocks away. "No idea." She moves
closer to him on the bed and wraps her arms around him, smelling his
musk of fading cologne and skin mingled with cigarette smoke. "I had
the dream again last night," she whispers.
Hillary nods. "He said he was coming for us."
Sam pushes her back gently, holding her at arms' length. "Is that
why you don't want me to get the pills?"
Hillary's eyes search her husband's face for some indication of an
answer to his question. "I don't know," she says at last. "Maybe."
"Oh, honey," he says, "I wish it could-"
The knock on the apartment door sounds like a rifle crack in the stillness
of the New York afternoon. And yet, for all that, it is a small knock...
a delicate knock. And outside the window there seems to be some kind
of commotion and lots of shouting... like a parade, maybe.
The news traveled fast, spreading like wildfire fueled by
the wind of the approaching asteroid. Dead people were coming back to
life... kind of.
It sounded comicbook-crazy but it was true.
Telephones the world over buzzed and hummed with the news: sons and
fathers, daughters and mothers, uncles and aunts and sisters and brothers...
they were all coming back, sauntering down paths and knocking on doors,
drifting into backyards and onto porches, peering through once-familiar
kitchen windows and smiling never-forgotten smiles.
At first, the people who heard the news thought it might be some by-product
of the asteroid... like something dreamed up by George Romero and Stephen
King, a plague of flesh-eating cadavers shambling the highways and byways
of the doomed world in a final devastating flourish of death and destruction.
But then their own doorbells and buzzers sounded or their own windows
rattled with a distantly familiar tapping or mailboxes clattered open
to allow long-ago special calls in long-ago special voices that had
lived on only in dreams and wishful memories. Sure, it just had to be
something to do with Fat Tuesday, but the animated corpses seemed to
possess not only no malice, evil intentions or appetite for human skin
and cartilage but also no idea of how they had gotten there.
They came in droves, huge processions of men, women and children, some
young and some old, some no more than babes in arms carried by another
of their number, and all of them marveling at the things they passed
by, each of them making their way to a familiar place and to familiar
They came into towns and cities, along arterial blacktops empty of
cars and trucks, and along the narrow roads that are the blue veins
connecting communities. And a few came by other means...
The Mississippi River is almost 2,500 miles long, drifting
and winding from a stream you could step across in northern Minnesota
and washing miles wide through the country's heartland and down into
the Gulf of Mexico.
If you counted the Missouri -- which feeds into the Mississippi from
the Rockies just north of St. Louis -- and the Ohio, which gets in on
the act around Cairo, IL, and the Red, the Arkansas, the Tensas and
the Yazoo...you'd be talking about getting on for 4,000 miles of river
system. Only the Nile and the Amazon are longer.
The Mississippi and its tributaries drain almost one and a quarter
million miles, including all or part of 31 states and some 13,000 square
miles of Canada. Through Prairie du Chien in Wisconsin it drifts, where
French fur traders exchanged goods and services with the Winnebego;
down through Cave-In-Rock, Illinois and into Vicksburg, with its vast
Civil War battlefield where, on a still night you might just hear the
cries of Southerners still withstanding General's Grant's 47-day siege;
and on down to Hannibal, boyhood home of Sam Clemens, who took the nom
de plume of the riverboat captains' calls for measuring the water's
depth -- 'Mark Twain!'
So many places along that drift of water, so many swirls and eddies,
you could imagine many things getting out into that watery flow to sail
So maybe you could imagine this: a huge, gaudily-painted floating palace
pulled from the secret depths of the river somewhere where nobody has
ever been, a pair of enormous paddle wheels rucking up the frothy water,
its saloons decked out in gilt and scarlet and velvet, bright white
paneling and the sound of banjo-picking... sailing slowly, drifting
between the West Bank and Algiers, drifting under the Huey P. Long bridge
upriver near Harahan, and then settling, just a stone's throw from the
Moonwalk promenade of the French Quarter where, on an evening in the
dog days of the world, a saxophone's lilting refrain merged into the
sound of accordions and the smell of tobacco and the whoops and cries
of people making the most of their unearned death sentence.
And as the riverboat nears the side, it sounds its horn, a mournful
but somehow strangely exultant wail that breaks through the sounds of
sometimes reluctant and sometimes forced revelry, causing it to stop,
not all at once but itself like a wave, a wave of silence washing through
the port of New Orleans where Mardi Gras is in full swing, a true 'farewell
to the flesh'. And there they are, hanging from the sides of the riverboat
in all manner of clothing, old and young alike, hanging onto railings
and wainscoting, leaning against funnel and gate, waving for all their
worth to folks in the crowds that soon gather around the moorings.
At the front of the throng of hand-holding beer-drinking revelers sits
a woman in a wheelchair, frowning in a mixture of disbelief and an excitement
she thought she would never feel again. For now, in this magical short
final era of the history of Earthbound humanity, a new ability holds
sway... an ability known only to children, the mythical race that knows
the power of the darkness and the light alike, that knows the real power
of acceptance without reason.
'The dead are here!'
The cry moves through the crowds like the wind itself, touching every
one of them as they recognize faces on the riverboat, return smiles
and waves, anxiously waiting for the boat to dock so that they may all
Then, 'There's another one!' someone calls.
And there, up the river, is another boat just like the first one, paddlewheels
thrashing the surf of the old Mississippi, churning it up like watery
thunder. And behind that one, itself bedecked with a hundred or a thousand
waving bodies, comes another, letting out its steamboat whistle cry...
only this one doesn't sound mournful at all: this one sounds like the
biggest cheer that ever was... until the boat behind it, just coming
around the bend now, pulls fully into view and lets rip. Now that's
the biggest cheer that ever was... at least for a minute or two,
a deep-throated calliope wheeze that sets folks to holding their ears
and laughing and crying all at the same time.
They hear the clarion call out in the plantations surrounding New Orleans,
plantations with names such as Rosedown and Destrehan, where the garconnieres
are already filling with old familiar faces... work-clothed men in overalls
wading through the cotton plants or the rice, indigo, hemp, tobacco,
sorghum, corn, peanuts, potatoes and sugar, beaming grins big enough
to crack the whole face wide open, or appearing from around majestic
live oaks bedecked in Spanish moss and from behind centuries-old camellias
and azaleas, the watery sunshine dappling them like fireflies.
As the ships reach the dock one by one the people jump and drop and
sometimes just walk right off. Their clothes are sometimes yesterday's
fashions and sometimes straight out of the turn of the century, a mix
of zoot suits and linen jackets, lettered sweaters and gingham dresses,
and all kinds of uniform -- army, navy, air force... and many of them
stylistically different, too. But all of them touch down on the riverside
walkway beaming big smiles, their eyes scanning the crowds trying to
pick out the faces they've come to see. And every time one of the waiters
greets one of the visitors -- be the newcomer old or young -- their
first word is often their name followed by a query.
"Sandy, is it really you?"
"Son? Welcome home... we're real proud of you."
And then come the questions... lots of questions. But the answer is
always the same: "I don't know... I just don't know."
In the massing thrusting pushing throng of people, some searching and
some who have already found each other, a wheelchair threads its way
to the water's edge where the big paddleboat sits, its deckboards creaking
and its funnel hissing softly. The woman in the chair searches the faces
and the bodies, ignoring the good-natured jostling as she watches the
arms outstretch, thinking each time that the arms are for her but then
realizing that the clothes are wrong or the color of the skin is wrong
"Carmen. Over here!"
She feels emotion well up in her stomach, feels a tingle down her legs
that she hasn't felt for what seems like a lifetime, and she feels the
tell-tale tickle of a tear on her cheek. "Julio?"
Her eyes scan the knees and legs that surround her as she struggles
to lift herself from the chair that has become her home, and amidst
the mustaches and the sideburns, the long-tail coats and the swirling
crinoline, she sees him.
And he sees her.
It's Saturday morning.
Just another Saturday morning, to look at the folks strolling the streets
of New Orleans. But if you sneaked and looked into the French Quarter
-- not that you'd need to sneak: you can hear the hullabaloo clear across
town -- you'd think that maybe the Saturday night partying has started
just a little sooner than usual. Either that, or the Friday night session
is going on past its usual cut-off time.
But then it isn't just another Saturday morning. In fact, it isn't
just any morning at all: it's the last day of the world, and the songs
of leaving it all behind fill the air like the scent of summer jasmine,
thick and wistful.
The light is soft, like a late fall afternoon, with Fat Tuesday now
sitting squarely between the sun and the ground, plummeting on to keep
its scheduled appointment at 2.17 EST. Just a little over four hours
All of the farewells have been said -- most of them many times during
the past three days. But there's been a lot of greetings, too.
Now the dead walk and sit alongside the living, chewing the fat, tapping
a foot to the music that seems to wash around everything like the early-morning
mist that sometimes spills over from the river.
Over on Bourbon Street, Fats Domino and Mac Rebbenack are duetting
on a couple of Steinway Grandes rolled out into the street from Jeff
Dickerson's instrument store, while Alvin 'Shine' Robinson powering
up and down the fretboard on the Earl King favorite, 'Let The Good Times
Roll', while Robert Parker's sax wails and whines. The crowd cheers
at every bum note that spills out -- they've been cheering since well
before dawn -- as long as the constantly changing band has been playing
(and drinking... so you can forgive the musicians a lot). Truth to tell,
you can forgive anyone pretty much anything this morning.
In the audience, watching Fats and the good Doctor hammer the ivories,
are Professor Longhair and Lloyd Price, Huey 'Piano' Smith and Joe Tex,
Ernie K. Doe and Lee Dorsey. They'll all get a turn on the instruments
and many of them already have. And if and when folks fancy a little
oration between the music, former governor Huey Long is all set to bend
their ears for one last time... though right now, just like everyone
else, he seems content to whoop and laugh and slap his leg, spurred
on by Democratic congressman John Breaux, the pair of them having given
up trying to talk over the music.
The truth is, it's impossible to figure out who's dead and who's alive.
Some of these folks you recognize straight off, and you wonder to yourself...
wonder as you grab another bottle of beer from a passing waiter... you
wonder just which is which. Not that it matters.
Sitting at one of the tables outside Cafe du Monde, at the corner
of Decatur and St Ann, working their way through a plate of beignets
and their third cup of cafe au lait while listening to Allen
Toussaint play a little boogie-woogie on an old stand-up wooden piano,
are Anne Rice, William Faulkner, Ellen Gilchrist and British publisher
John Jarrold (who, in all his years in the business, has never missed
a convention in the Big Easy). Meanwhile, leaning against the front
wall chatting to the driver of a horse-drawn cab, Jack Kerouac and Allen
Ginsburg seem to be sharing a joke with Truman Capote and John Kennedy
Toole... with Kerouac holding up a copy of Toole's Pulitzer Prize-winning
A Confederacy of Dunces and shaking his head. Toole just shrugs
and allows a slow trickle of water into his glass of absinthe, watching
with satisfaction as the liquid turns a bright yellow.
On the riverfront round back of Cafe du Monde, hookers provide final
-- and occasionally first -- sensuous experiences to men and boys on
the steps and amidst the foliage, the sound of their anxious enjoyment
permeating the already filled air.
A shoe-shine boy stops Julio Shennanen -- "A high five for the shine
and just your thanks for the time," he says, holding his right hand
in the air, fingers stretched out like twigs. "Gotta have clean shoes
to meet your maker."
"I'm fine, but thanks," Julio says.
"How 'bout you, missie?" the man asks, a grin from ear to ear exposing
bridgework gaps you could suck pickles through. "Polish up them wheels
so fine you could make the sun put on his glasses."
Carmen laughs and claps her hands. "No, really," she tells him, reaching
out to touch his arm. "We're both fine. Thanks."
The man shrugs and tells them to have a good day, and then he shakes
his head and chuckles as he walks off. Alongside him, in the bushes
next to a telescope overlooking the river, a tall, red-headed woman
is sitting astride a young barefoot man. Carmen and Julio can see only
the woman's back and the man's feet poking out from beneath her long
skirts, and, just for a couple of seconds, they watch the woman moving
slowly up and down and they listen to her voice, soothing and encouraging.
Carmen looks up at Julio and feels new strength from his smile.
"Wheel me over to the steps," she says, nodding to the gap in the railings
overlooking the river. "Then you can get me out of this damned chair
so's I can sit on land again."
Julio does as she asks.
The two of them sitting on the steps, Carmen looks up at the black
hole that is Fat Tuesday. "You know," she says, closing one eye and
squinting, "if you look at it just right, you can almost believe you
could reach out your hand and feel it." She reaches up with her left
arm to demonstrate, feeling around with her hand.
Without turning around to look at him, Carmen asks her husband, "How
close do you think it is?"
"Close," comes the reply.
For a few seconds, Carmen doesn't say anything. Then, "You know," she
says, "I think I'd like to go swimming."
There are already folks in the water, swimming slowly out in the middle
of the river but she thinks that maybe Julio will say she shouldn't
do that. Instead, he stands up and takes off his shirt and pants, dropping
them into a neat pile beside her. Then he takes off his shorts.
Firecrackers light up the now dark sky and a chorus of cheers and trumpets
sound above the already cacophonous din.
"You want me to help you?" he asks.
Carmen's mouth is wide open in a mixture of shock and excitement...
the kind of excitement that comes only when you think you're doing something
naughty. "Maybe with my pants and hose," she says, giggling as she unbuttons
her blouse. "And then you can take me down to the water."
"Take you down to the water?" Julio says. "Heck, you can just fall
in." And he gives her a push before diving in after her.
Carmen hits the Mississippi in momentary panic, sinking immediately
beneath the surface, staring up through the swirling water at the dark
shape that looms overhead. Then she sees another shape, the thin brown
outline of her husband, cut into the water alongside her and she feels
his arms wrap themselves around her and lift her gently to the surface.
She emerges spluttering and shakes her head. "You damned fool," she
says, "I could have drowned."
For a second, neither of them does or says anything, they just float
there, Julio paddling with his feet and keeping them straight with his
left arm treading the water. Then they both burst into hysterics.
"I wonder... I wonder what time it is," Carmen says as she allows her
husband to turn her over onto her back and swim, pulling her with him.
There's a wind in the air now, a strong wind.
More fireworks light up the sky, turning the darkness into a daylight
of sorts. The glow of the fireworks momentarily illuminates the surface
of Fat Tuesday and she sees, suddenly, that it looks just like the ground
out back of their house in Brooklyn. No more mysterious than that.
Somewhere over in the town, they can hear Dr John playing 'Such A Night'.
"Who cares," Julio says, "we've got eternity... and we've got the river."
Carmen nods and squeezes Julio's hand. "Amen to that," she says.
"The great Mississippi, the majestic, the magnificent Mississippi,
rolling its mile-wide tide along, shining in the sun."
Mark Twain, Life on the Mississippi
© Peter Crowther 2004.
"Songs of Leaving" appears in the collection Songs of Leaving,
published by Subterranean
Press, October 2004.
Peter Crowther's collection, Songs
, is published by Subterranean
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